Chapter 64
Chapter 64
Rhea
Everything feels numb.
“You need to eat a little,” Marcella talks to me, but I don’t really want to listen.
I don’t want to do anything. All I want to do is stay in bed, and sleep.
My wolf is gone. She’s gone forever. And I can’t get her back. I can’t get her back.
I’m a human now.
A fucking human.
“You haven’t eaten in days. And I’m starting to get worried, Rhea. I don’t know what to do anymore.”
“Can you please just leave me alone?” I don’t want to be rude, but I can’t help myself. I just want to be left alone, for as long as I can be.
That night still hasn’t left my mind. The night where my wolf died, where she left me.
And I’m still grieving. I don’t know if I ever will stop grieving. But I can’t stop. I can’t stop thinking about her, about what she meant to me, about how much I loved her. Without her, I’m nothing. Without her, I’m just a shell. An empty shell.
When Marcella is gone, I shift a little on the couch, my knees press against the arm of the couch while I look outside the window. My dreams are now just dreams. There’s no reality to them anymore.
My life is different now.
I was a wolf, and now I’m not. I’m just a human. And I hate it. But more than that, I hate Ezra for what he did to me. For what he did to my wolf. But he was gone, long gone by then. He had fled the lands before anyone could get to him.
My eyes shoot over to the door as it opens again. It’s not Marcella this time but Aron. When he walks in, I turn away. I can’t bear to look at him. I don’t want to. Bleak hate fills me every time I do.
But he’s everywhere and nowhere. He’s always around me. Always watching me.
“How are you doing?” His voice is soft and gentle, but it grates on my ears.
I don’t answer him. I don’t even acknowledge him. I just stare at the window, the trees, and the sky. I don’t want to talk to him. I don’t want to talk to anyone.
“Rhea,” His voice is more stern this time. “Talk to me.”
“What is there to talk about?” I snap at him, my anger rising. “What is there to say? Nothing. I don’t know why you’re here. Why are you here? Just leave me alone. I want to be alone.”
He walks towards me and stands in front of me. I tip my chin up to look at him. I’m not scared of him anymore, I don’t think. I don’t feel the fear anymore. I don’t feel anything anymore. Just hate. Hate.
“You should eat something.”
“I don’t want to.”
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“Marcella says you’re not eating”
I roll of the couch and onto my feet, “I’m not hungry, I don’t want to eat anything. I told her that already.”
With that, I prepare to leave since he doesn’t want to leave. But before I can move an inch, his hand his around mine, pulling me back and holding me still, “Don’t be so stubborn, Rhea.”
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“And why should I not be?” I throw his hand off of mine. “You did this to me, Aron. Everything that happened was because of you. My wolf is gone, and it’s because of you.”
His jaw tics and he looks away. The anger in his eyes is clear and evident. I’m not blind to it.
“You think I wanted this to happen to you?”
“I don’t know. Maybe you did,” I step back, away from him, away from his touch. “You promised me that nothing would happen. I listened to you. You took me when I didn’t want to go. I didn’t fight you. I went with you because you said you’d keep me safe. You said you’d protect me. But you didn’t. And now, my–now she’s dead.”
He’s silent, his gaze still averted from me, and I know he’s thinking, I can see it. The wheels in his head are turning. But I don’t care anymore. I don’t care if I’m hurting him with my words. I don’t care if he feels guilty.
He deserves it. He deserves it for everything that’s happened to me. Everything that’s been done to me. Everything.
“If I knew this would’ve happened, I would’ve never taken you,” His voice is hard as he looks at me.
“I don’t believe you.”
He takes a step forward and I take a step back. “You don’t mean that,” There’s a look on his face, one that’s unreadable. But I can’t see it clearly. I’m not even sure what it is.
“I do.” I swallow, trying to hold back my tears, but it’s not working, and I can feel the wetness on my cheeks.
I can’t do this.
I can’t do this.
I can’t be around him.
I need to leave, I have to. I can’t be near him, I can’t be around him.
I turn away and I try to run. But his arm comes around my waist, pulling me back to him, and his body is against mine. My chest against his, my face pressed to his.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” His voice is soft in my ear, and I can feel his regret. I can hear the pain in his voice. I can feel the hurt in his heart.
But I don’t want to. I don’t want to hear it.
“You don’t mean it, you don’t.” I push him away. “Let go of me.”
“Listen to me-” he starts.
But I interrupt him before he can say another word. “I don’t want to listen. You took me with you, and this is what happened
to me.”
“Rhea-” He tries to hold onto my wrists, but I break away.
“No, no, you don’t understand. I was just fine before you. Everything that happened, everything was just because of you,” I’m not stopping. The words are spilling from my mouth like a river. I can’t hold back anymore. I can’t. “I lost my wolf because
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of you. I lost my life, I lost everything because of you, I didn’t ask for any of it, and you just came and ruined me. I wish I never met you, I wish I had never known you. You’ve taken everything away from me.
He stands there, and I see his shoulders drop and a look of defeat cross his features. His eyes close and he takes a deep breath, his fists clenching and unclenching. When his eyes open, they flicker, turning softer. His voice comes out strained when he talks, “I didn’t want any of this to happen. I wanted you to be mine, that was all I wanted”
I’m not listening. No. Not anymore. I’m done listening,
I turn to leave, but he doesn’t let me. I thrash against him. But his grip is firm, too firm.
“Leave,” I sob as tears spill down my cheeks. My throat clogs up. “Let me be. Please. Just let me be. Just go away.”
“I won’t,” he tells me, his grip tightening on me.
My back presses against his chest as I try to escape his hold. “Please, I just want to be left alone.”
“I’m not leaving you, not like this,” he whispers in my ear, his breath hot on my skin.
I struggle, trying to get out of his arms, but I’m powerless. There’s nothing left within me. Nothing. My eyes burn with tears as I falter against him, my head dropping back against his shoulder, and I’m crying. Sobbing.
“I’m so sorry,” I can feel him press a kiss on my hair, and then his head drops down on my shoulder, his nose in my hair as his hands come to my face. “I didn’t mean for to get to this point, Rhea. I wanted you to stay safe and protected. I wanted to protect you, to keep you with me. And when I took you that night, I thought I could. But I failed. I didn’t. You almost died and it was my fault. But I won’t ever make the same mistake twice, I won’t.”
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