Chapter 73
Chapter 73
Rhea
My heart feels like it’s going to burst. My breath gets shorter the more I stay in this room. It seems like it’s closing in on me, suffocating me, killing me slowly.
Her words repeat over and over again. An unspoken truth.
No.
She’s wrong. Right? Maybe… I can’t tell because there’s no part of me that can answer that. The one part of me that could is dead now. My wolf is dead now. If she was here with me, within me, she’d tell me what’s right and what’s wrong, but I have no one in my head now.
I rub my palm over my forehead, sighing loudly. Tears form in my eyes, a knot forms in my throat, and my chest starts to ache.
Her words burn holes inside of me.
All my insecurities come crashing in on me all together. The reality starts setting in and I’m too weak to deny it this time. All these days, these weeks, I denied the truth that was shoved right in front of my face. I didn’t see it all, I ignored it, I pretended like things would change, that becoming a human wouldn’t matter. That it wasn’t a problem.
But I lied.
Everything is different now, more than before. My human self can’t connect with him anymore. Not emotionally, not mentally, not even physically. In every manner, I’m human, and my place isn’t in this pack or any pack anymore. I don’t belong in this world.
A knock lands on the door. I gasp and sit up straight before rubbing my eyes clean. I don’t want anyone to see me like this.
The door opens before I get a chance to even give a response. Of course, it’s Aron, it always is. I don’t need to look up to see him.
I sniffle a bit.
“You okay?” he asks, approaching me and stopping in front of me.
“Yeah,” I lie. My voice shakes as I try to conceal it all. “I was just going to sleep.” My palms rub against my pajama pants as my nerves get to me.
He doesn’t sit with me tonight. He just stands in front of me, tall and towering. I crane my neck to look at him, to look at his face, and I find him watching me with his intense gaze.
“Wake up earlier in the morning,” He tells me, and I frown.
“Why?”
“Come to me.”
“Why?”
“Don’t ask questions.”
It makes me only want to ask more questions, “Why?” I repeat again.
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“I’ve something for you that I think you would want. So be up early and come to me. Okay?” His fingers wrap around my jaw and tilt it upwards gently.
“Okay, I whisper
He nods and drops his hand from my face and suddenly, I miss the feeling of his fingers on me. He lingers there for a second, perhaps he’s hesitant to leave. I wish he didn’t have to leave at all, but he does. He closes the door on his way out and just like that, he’s gone.
I lean back against the couch, just breathing, trying to catch my breaths, trying to stop them from getting stuck in my throat. There are thoughts racing through my mind, thoughts about the future, the unknown.
It’s scary.
And I don’t even know where to start.
My mind is jumbled. I can’t think straight. His mother’s words keep repeating in my head. What if she’s right? Aron is an Alpha, that too of a strong pack. He has to mate with someone who will match him. Someone who will be an asset to this pack.
Not me. Not a human.
Staying here will cause problems, and staying with him will make things harder for him. For me, too.
But my heart aches, and it clenches at the thought of leaving.
But what will staying accomplish? What good will it bring?
Aron saved me, yes, he did. But I’m not his responsibility anymore. He has done his fair share in protecting me. Now, it’s my responsibility to leave without causing him any trouble. I can’t weigh him down. That’ll be unfair to him.
I get off the couch after a while, after a long while of contemplating. When I do, I head straight into my closet and look at the things that are there. I don’t have a family, the one I have doesn’t care about me at all. They’d laugh if they knew that my wolf was a runt.
I don’t have a wolf, either. I’m no one.
And here, I’m nobody as well.
But I can leave, I can try to find my place among the humans, be alone, and live freely. Without burdening anyone.
Most of the things in the closet aren’t even mine. Most of my clothes were bought by Aron, and most of the accessories were also arranged by him and Marcella. There’s nothing here that belongs to me except for the books and a couple of clothes
that came.
My heart races when I think of leaving. It’s sudden. It’s too fast. And it’s rash, but I can’t stay and imagine the things that’ll happen if Mrs. Alena decides to talk to Aron about me.
She’ll tell him that I’ll told her everything. She’ll tell him to leave me. I know that. I could tell that from her eyes alone. She doesn’t want me for her son.
Who would? I’m human.
Tears fall down my cheeks as I grab hold of a random small duffel bag and empty its contents. I fill it up with a few clothes of mine. Not too many. No, I don’t need that many. I never did. I just take what I need and once I’m done, I slip my boots over my feet and wear my jacket.
My heart beats too loudly. Too loudly that I can barely hear my own thoughts.
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It’s the middle of the night when I leave the manor. No one sees, no one hears, no one knows.
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