Chapter 79
Chapter 79
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“I’m only telling you this because I can tell that Aron cares a lot for you. It’s evident. I mean, he never cared for anyone before, and I wouldn’t have told this to anyone who didn’t deserve to know.” He tells me while pacing back and forth in the office itself. He doesn’t sit. “And now, since he has marked you, it’s only fair, you know.”
“Know what exactly? Tell me,” I push. I can feel anxiety settling in. I’m worried it will become worse. So much worse than I’m already thinking in my mind.
“It’s not him that you’re seeing these days,” He begins, scratching his head and staring at the ground. “Well, not exactly, anyway. It’s Kael, his wolf.” He halts, glances up, and meets my gaze.
“What do you mean?”
“For the longest I’ve known him, he has this tendency of switching and giving control to his wolf when he feels weak. His mind gets overwhelmed at times, and in moments, when the pressure is too great, he slips away and allows Kael to take over,” He explains in detail. I try to wrap my head around it. “When he takes over, it’s for long periods of time, sometimes months and sometimes for years.”
Years?
I furrow my brows in confusion, trying to wrap my head around what he just said. There’s no way. No. A wolf is just a part of our being, not a form of its own. It’s something we control, something we suppress in moments and give freedom to others. It’s always us controlling it, never the opposite.
“But that’s not possible.”
“It is, trust me. He lets him take over. Aron knows when it happens, how it happens, and why it happens,” He takes a seat opposite me. “He’s not like you and me—not like all the werewolves you’ve met. He’s not the same. He’s different. Very different.” His eyes lock on mine.
The fact that he’s suggesting the fact that the man who came to me yesterday, and every day before it, was not Aron but Kael -it’s baffling.
The one who marked me yesterday–was his wolf?
“I don’t understand. Isn’t it the same? Isn’t it the same mind?”
Kovas shakes his head, “No, it’s not the same. It’s very different. If it weren’t, do you think they’d have separate names? The thing with Kael is–he’s insane,” He states, looking away from me. “He has a complete different personality. Yes, they are both similar, they both act similar but Aron is tamed.”
“And Kael isn’t?”
“No, Kael is anything but tame.” He puts his hand under his chin, leaning against the table. “Think of it this way–Aron is rational, calm, and composed. But Kael is the opposite. He acts on impulse, on instinct alone, and no rationality. He is unpredictable and violent. His nature is bloodthirsty, he’s cruel, and he’s dangerous.”
All the times I have ever felt a chill down my spine–it doesn’t amount to what I just felt when I heard what Kovas had to
say.
How often does he do it then?
How often has he given control to Kael instead of having it for himself?
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“How–when he killed Ezra-
“Kael,” I don’t have to finish.
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“And when he came to save me?”
“Aron,”
“What about the other times? What about the wedding–who was it then? And when he came to the pack house first, with you and your pack mates?”
“The wedding it was Kael. And when we came to the pack house it was Aron,” Kovas tells me, “I can go on about this. I can tell when he shifts between his consciousnesses. It’s apparent, to me. I know when he does it.”
“How?” I question.
“Many ways,” he sighs, “There are tiny signs that show he’s switching, most of the time, it’s his rage and fury, and when things start escalating beyond limits. The wedding, he switched long before that, when you went into that room.”
That night–I saw his darkened eyes.
“That was why he looked like that?” I whisper softly, recalling that evening, “The eyes…”
He nods, “Kael loves to fight. He loves it. And if a battle is promised, you’ll find him doing everything to win. He wanted to kill Elias, and he did just that.”
It wasn’t Aron who kissed me for the first time, it was Kael.
It feels like my breathing has come to a halt. I can’t breathe. My heart pounds loudly, and I can hear it in my ears. I don’t know what to say anymore or how to react to this.
“Is–is this what he’s doing right now? Battles?”
Kovas nods again,
“As of now, there are almost eight northern packs aside from the smaller ones. Aron claimed the Nighthowl pack a couple of months ago, and last night, we claimed victory against the Dumas pack.”
“Okay…?” I trail off.
“In the North, most alphas who rule are from the line of their ancestors, passed down to generation and generation. But Aron wants to change that. He wants to rule over all the northern territories by defeating them in battles, killing the alpha as he did with your—”
I finish for him, “My old pack.”
“Yes,”
“Why?” I question. “That won’t accomplish anything but chaos.”
“That is true. But Kael doesn’t cares about it. He wants to rule the North and once he’s done with that, he will go for the South, East and West,” He says, “Nothing matters to Kael, Rhea, except power and violence. With his skill and strength, he’s unstoppable. We defeated a strong pack last night. He showed no mercy, no hesitation, no regret. All he wants is to rule.”
“And Aron?” I question.
“He agrees. But the thing is that the longer Aron allows Kael to be in control, the harder it becomes for Aron to come back out. And there will be a time where once Kael’s form dominates over Aron, it will take fully, and he will no longer be Aron, but only Kael.”
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The pain on Kovas‘ face becomes evident.
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“But Aron knows when to pull back, right? It’s just a matter of when, isn’t it?” I ask him, hoping that perhaps there’s a alver
lining.
“Aron knows, but when they’re working towards the same goal, it doesn’t matter?
I get up from my chair, trying to wrap my head around what he told me. Trying to process it all, one step at a time. All along, I thought it was something else, something completely different. I never considered the possibility of Aron being
two.
But he is. And that’s far more terrifying than anything else.
“There’s no one that knows. Not even Marcella,”
I turn to Kovas, surprised, “She doesn’t?”
“No,”
“What about his family?”
“No,” He gives his head a shake. “Which is why you need to keep it to yourself. If Aron learns that I told you this, he won’t spare me.” That’s why he didn’t tell me before. He’s scared for his life.
“I won’t.”
I can understand the fear. Knowing all of this, terrifies me, too.
I swallow the bile growing in my throat and ask, “How do you change him back?”
“I don’t. It’s just–moments of vulnerability that Kael cannot understand. Where he cannot react,” He replies. “Moments like those, Aron surfaces.”
“Like?”
“After the wedding, when you lost your wolf and when I told Kael about it. Aron surfaced.” He explains.
Right.
He just needs to be emotionally vulnerable…
